Bear one another’s burdens, and thereby fulfill the law of Christ.
Galatians 6:2
Some of you may have detected a note of melancholy here at Raising Arrows lately. Some may have chalked it up to the 4 year anniversary of Emily’s death coming soon, or the 5 year anniversary of my father’s death the week after, or the miscarriage back at Thanksgiving. While all of these are certainly at the forefront of my mind, there is another burden.
At Christmas, I found out I was surprisingly pregnant again. We were elated and I was excited to think I would have a new little one to hold and such a wonderful story to tell. Last Tuesday, my wonderful story died.
Baby’s heart was no longer beating.
The morning sickness and exhaustion continue to plague me as the numbers have not fallen enough to stop that.
And next weekend, we move.
A few nights ago I found myself asking God how much one person could take before they broke in two.
I am broken. But as I said in my Mom in the Headlights post, perhaps I am right where God wants me.
I don’t like being needy. I don’t like knowing so much about death. I don’t like all the waiting and all the pain and stress. However, I’ve noticed as I’ve shared my burden with others, God has given me more and more peace, more and more strength to keep going.
I cry, but I am comforted. I am tired, but I rest. I am weak, but He is strong.
Weekends in the Word is a ministry of Raising Arrows meant to offer a time of worship and encouragement specifically for those mommies who find themselves, due to circumstances beyond their control, unable to attend worship services with other believers. However, all are welcome here each weekend to feast on His Word.
Oh Amy! I’m sending my prayers toward heaven for you all and my (HUGS) your way. This is a pain that I know too well. 4 miscarriages in 12 months – 8 years ago now. Also one between my boys three years before. We still visit the cemetary to lay flowers on their birthdays into heaven (just visited this afternoon actually). May our loving Heavenly Father comfort your aching heart with the peace that passes all understanding in the painful days to come. Know that you are loved and upheld in prayer. – Deedee
I am a new reader in this past month and have been so blessed by the things you have written. I am so sorry for your loss and will be praying for you. Know that your sisters in Christ are lifting you up.
Praying God’s grace for you and your family during this time. Trusting that God will see you through. You are a wonderful servant of the Lord’s and I’m sure He’s holding you in His precious Hands while you grieve.
love and prayers
Oh my I am sorry to hear this. I am praying for you and your family. It is so good to see you continue to shine for HIM as you go through your tough time. Hugs to you!
So sorry to hear this but thanking God for His steadfast peace to you and your family through it all. I am learning something very similar in that …..perhaps I am right where God wants me…….As I recently went through my 5th miscarriage. I am learning of a God that many others won’t know in such a way. There is a desire to lean in just a little bit closer to the embrace of our Father.
I will continue to pray for your precious family.
In His sweet Grace,
Semone
I am so, so, sorry Amy. You are on my prayer list.
I am praying for you Amy! I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this again and so soon. Your blog has been such a blessing to me as my husband and I have changed our thinking about children. Thank you for being so real and so encouraging.
Praying for God’s peace, strength and comfort for you!!!!!!
So sorry, praying for you during this, yet another, difficult time. I recently started reading your blog and it has been a huge encouragement to me, my faith and my family. Thank you for your faithfulness!