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Emily’s Story

Remembering Emmy

“I would not move forward if it meant leaving Emmy behind. I don’t know how anyone can pretend a child never existed, take down their pictures, remove their things…No, I do not leave her behind and move on, I move forward, with all 5 children – one running a bit ahead¦ just out of sight.”

~from Today ~ Moving Forward 2/16/08

My Free ebook Devotional for Grieving Families

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Grief Posts You Should Read
A Beautiful Mess – How God can bring beauty from the ashes of your grief
Thoughts from a Grieving Mother
What We Share as Husbands and Wives – Avoiding divorce
Remembering – There comes a time when you remember with smiles instead of tears
When the Roller Coaster Begins to Slow – Grief is not a ride that ends
An Emotional Day ~ A Changing Me – Will I ever be ME again?
Going Back – Revisiting the place where my daughter died
A Day to “Celebrate” – Learning to celebrate again
Never Quite Right – Someone is always missing
Fear – The fear that follows grief
Grieving on Purpose – Sometimes you choose when you grieve
Is There Anything Worse Than This?
The Selfish Side of Grief – Weight gain, bankruptcy, divorce are all symptoms of this

Things Others Should Know About Grief
Grief Is Dirty

What Can I Do?
Looking for Someone to Blame in Tragedy

How to Help a Grieving Friend – Interview with


Breastfeeding ~ The Memory of Emily
Winner of the 2009 Blog to Inspire


Lord, hold my child close to You,
And if You will, I plea,
That as You hold her close to You,
She remember when I held her close to me.

~from Out of the Mouths of Babes 3/3/08


Links to Grief Resources:


See Emily’s Memory Box from this ministry.


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  4. I just want you to know, though I have never met you or your sweet baby girl that I mourn with you for the loss of her life. She is beautiful, perfect, amazing. There are no words to cover the loss of a child, but know that her story has touched me and I am better for it. Thank you for sharing her with the world, I look forward to knowing her in times to come as well. Maybe my Hope and her are playmates together… Big hugs to you mama, I am so sorry you lost your little Emily but so glad she came to you and you shared her with us.

  5. Thank you so much for sharing Emmy’s story, what a beautiful and sweet baby. Your faith is uplifting and encouraging. I can’t wait to have more time to spend reading on your site.

  6. I want to thank you so much for sharing your story and your devotional. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter. One year ago last Saturday we lost our son, Benjamin. He was my 9th. Our first was a miscarriage at 9 weeks, and we never even knew if it was a boy or girl. As hard as it was, that first experience made us realize all the more how precious life is and that we need to treasure every moment with our children. We then had a daughter and 6 sons. Last March I was 20 weeks pregnant with Benjamin and went in for a routine office visit. When they couldn’t find the heartbeat they did an ultrasound. The image of the tech looking at me and telling me she couldn’t find his heartbeat is forever etched in my mind. We found out it was a cord accident. The cord had twisted up so badly it was cinched up, depriving him of such badly-needed nutrients. The last year has been so difficult. I have prayed and remained faithful to my God, even though I couldn’t understand why he would allow this to happen. But there are so many little dates that come up that make me feel like I have made no progress at all. There was my due date, our anniversary-the day he was conceieved, Christmas-the day we told the kids we were expecting, and most recently the anniversary of the day we found out we had lost him. I have struggled with the fact that I never got to hold him, to touch him, to gaze into his precious eyes. I keep telling myself that I just need to continue praying and reading my Bible, that one day my joy would return. And it has slowly gotten easier. But then there are days when I feel so sad I have to push myself to go on. I’m sorry to lay this burden on you. As I started typing I felt I could lay my heart out to you as someone who would understand. I am excited to start with your devotional. On those days when I have felt I had nowhere to turn, I would open my Bible and not know where to go to find comfort. I have been a Christian my whole life, but I just didn’t know where to find the comfort I was looking for from God. I have new hope that your devotional and God’s Word will help me down this long road. I am so thankful to my friend for sending me a link to your site and so thankful to you for sharing about your grief. May God comfort you and bless you.

    • {{Noelle}} I understand. God understands. You hurt and that is ok. What a blessed little boy to have a mama like you. Prayers going up for your pain and may you be blessed by the ebook and God’s infinite mercy.

  7. I am crying my eyes out!!! I have never lost a child…and I hope I don’t have to..but if I do…I hope I handle it like you! Your amazing! I have had a nephew and niece die..and I am going to pass this on to my sisters! It will change their life! Your amazing and i am glad to have found your blog! :)

  8. Oh mama!! May God bless you, keep you and comfort you! My aunt lost her twins boys(one at 3wks, other at 18 months) when I was a young girl…I never knew what pain could feel like until I became a mother. God bless you for blessing them with this child but we know she belongs to you. She is now in a place where there is no pain, no suffering, no wanting…there is nothing BUT JOY!!! Oh what wonderful joy, a place where she will greet her parents one day. LORD comfort her parents as only you know how to do. Stay bless family because you truly are…
    Crying endure for a night but JOY comes in the morning…Psalm 30:5

  9. your site has touched my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!
    i’ve lost the two sons who loved me in word and deed..
    rocky at 21 to a motorcycle accident
    and now ronnie 34 to suicide…
    i know that YOU KNOW how one can NEVER have CLOSURE as the world defines it and never get OVER…..the loss of a child….
    how i have survied is only god and my husb and the grace of god…
    i miss my sons MORE each dan not less..
    it’s figuring out how to live the rest of ones life on this earth without them that is the challenge..
    i am a christian and honestly….i’ve barely made it at times,..
    after the death of my second son i didn’t know who i’d be and how my faith wold be…
    i used to think i was a weak chrsitian but NOW i know i am strong in HIM….and thru it all he’s been there but honestly most of the initial first yrs after each loss i NEVER felt his presense or help…
    could you send my the free ps…for greiving moms book??
    even if it’s printed out??
    i am dyslexic and adhd and need something tangible the ;printer is no good..
    thank’x for what ever…
    whats the name of that song on emilie’s vidio??
    p.s. i have two other sons but they have never respected me or treated me well since they became adults….their biological dad systematically stole their hearts from me as they were grown ing up…
    i am so so thankful for rocky and ronnie’s love against all odds towards me..
    and i live my life but they are always on my mind and in my heart and soul…
    the scripture that says god comforts us ( you) in the same way and with the same comfort as we then can reach out in comfort and care to others…..thru lifes losses ect…that’s what keeps me going for if i couldn’t with gods strength and wisdom….comfort others who have been thru likes losses as i have then the deaths of my two sons would be for nothing…..
    rainie williams

  10. I wanted to thank you for this page. My husband and I have been coming back and reading some of the links you have posted. 2 weeks ago I gave birth to our second child. A boy, Wyatt. The night before I had been labor and delivery with contractions. The doctor told me I was not in labor and sent me home. Five hours later, Wyatt was born at home at 23 weeks in to my pregnancy. My husband caught him after calling 911. Our son was alive and passed away in the back of the ambulance. We’ve been leaning very strongly on our faith these days. Reading some of these links helps.

  11. I was looking for homemade liquid laundry soap recipes as I just wanted to try it. And I came across your site. It was helpful because I live alone and don’t need 10 gallons. That would last me probably until either the Lord took me Home or the Rapture! But then……..I couldn’t help but watch your video about your beautiful Emily who went much too soon to the arms of Jesus. I cried and my heart ached. And I can’t imagine the pain. But I know that you know you will see her some day…and I will also see her, also. I pray for you, your husband, and your beautiful family. And the older I become, and as each day passes and it grows darker, I say, ‘Maranatha’. However, until that day, we continue to occupy and witness of His Love and Forgiveness. I look forward to meeting you and your family some day when we see our Lord and Savior—where they will be no more separation and pain. In His Love, Karen.

  12. Your story has touched me more than you can know. I have not lost a child myself, but my cousin has. She was the cousin I was closest to and my husband & I lived around 9 hours away due to my husband’s youth ministry position in the church we were in at that time. My mom called to tell me that my cousin’s boyfriend, the baby’s father, had called a neighbor, also a paramedic, because she was unresponsive. Come to find out, within 8 minutes of being completely alone with her for the first time, he shook her. My cousin had to make the hardest decision in her life a few hours later, and had the doctors pull the plug when it was clear she wasn’t going to make it.

    I can’t even imagine what anyone who has lost a child goes through, and I won’t even try. I am happy to say though that she was able to move on somewhat. Not long after that she met someone else, had a son with him and was pregnant again when she passed on due to carbon monoxide poisoning. Her then fiance and young son still live, her son lives with her parents, and when I see him I’m reminded so much of her. I still grieve for my cousin and her babies often. I rejoice though in the thought that they are together, and someday all her kids will meet and she will be able to hold all of them in her arms.

    I pray for you, that through you, your daughter’s short live here on earth will give strength to others, and encourage them through their toughest hours.

    God bless you

  13. Thank you so much for sharing that video, it really blessed my heart. I just miscarried our baby, we named her Blessing. She would have been our 5th. Trials are so hard, but I do love how the Lord uses everything in a believer’s life. I didn’t understand the Lord’s sovereignty until my daughter was diagnosed with cancer when she was 15, Praise the Lord, she is doing well and is carrying her own child now. The Lord used that in my life so I would seek Him for answers. I think once we understand the Lord’s sovereignty it helps us to rest in Him more and it helps us to understand life more. I really believe the Lord has taught you that lesson as well. Blessings to you as you seek the Lord.

  14. Thank you Amy for sharing Emily’s story. I am so sorry that your precious daughter is no longer with you, but you sharing your experience helps me know that someone else has many of the same feelings I do. My Nathan passed away on 6/16/09, at the age of 7. He had battled brain/spinal cancer for 2 & 1/2 years. I believe with all my heart that he is safe in the Lord’s care, that he will never hurt again, and if I live faithfully I can be with him again someday. With all that said, I still miss his sweet voice, his laughter, his arms wrapped around my neck for a tight hug. My brain tells me he is perfectly happy but my heart still longs for him. Thank you for creating this blog.

    May God bless you and your family,
    Shepherdsville, KY

  15. I can not imagine the pain you felt BUT the memorial was beautiful. You sharing your story will undoubtedly help others. God bless your family and little Emmy. She was a gorgeous angel and thank you for sharing your story and her life. I will never forget her!!!

  16. Thank you for sharing. I’ll be sharing this with my sister, who lost her precious son a few months ago. I’ve been looking for a good Christian resource to share with her. Thank you, and God bless!

  17. Thank you for your beautiful devotional and for sharing Emily’s story. I learnt yesterday that my daughter lost her 24-week old baby. I did not know what to do with that piece of information at the time. I just blocked it out, I guess. This morning, however, I am full of grief and again, did not know what to do with my tears and my sense of loss. I knew that I should go to Scripture – the psalms, but did not feel I knew which one(s) to read. I got online, googled ‘psalms of grief’ and your devotional was the first one on the list of items that came up. This is very helpful, and helped me focus on what I COULD do. I read the first psalm in a blur of pain. But I read it. Tomorrow I will read the next one and see how things progress. I still feel numb.

    Thank you and God bless you.

    • I am saying a small prayer for your family that God overwhelms you with his love and comfort. I am so sorry for your loss and will keep your family in my prayers.

  18. I just stumbled along your page and I would like say it is a God send. Although our story is not the same this page has given me encouragement. My friend past away from cancer last year and left behind her ten year old daughter. Although we have not had enough money to complete the adoption process she is now a part of our family. This makes our family now a family of seven. I have decided to home school my children this year and have felt it to be rewarding and at times overwhelming. On top of homeschooling we are blending our family and are also dealing with the grieve of losing a mother and a best friend. God has been at the center of everything in our lives however some days as a mom I just struggle. Today my children were fighting and struggling to do their school work. This site has encouraged me to press on because I know that I am doing the Lords will. Thank you!!!!! God Bless you and your family.

  19. I just stumbled across your website and found the video about Emily. What a beautiful little girl. I can’t imagine what you went through. I was weeping as I watched. We are expecting baby number 4 and found out that she has cysts on her right lung. We are praying that God will heal her. Thank you for sharing your story and letting God use it for His glory.

  20. Dear Amy,
    I am really going to try hard to not write a book here…it is late and I really need to get to bed. I have a lot that I would like to say to you but am gonna try to keep it short. I have recently stumbled accross your blog. You and I have a lot in common from what I can tell. Homeschool, Christians, family oriented, and we have both lost a baby. I have a 15yr old, a 12 year old who was a twin his brother died of SIDS when he was 3 1/2 mo old, a 6yr and baby. I read Emily’s story and just cryed and cryed for you…I am so so sorry! It is aweful! I know!!! Okay now I am crying again. I just wanted to comment to you to say a couple of things. As I was reading many of the emotions and your feelings came back to me and I remember that feeling of, well, feeling like I wasn’t me anymore. I think you understand. But it made me realize that I don’t feel like that anymore. I don’t know when that stopped but I can tell you, at 12 years later I don’t feel that way now. And I remember feeling kind of guilty about my feelings of wanting to be normal. Anyways I just want to tell you that I am okay now. And if you are still having lots of not okay days, it will get better. It will. I hope this helps.
    With love,

  21. Just this morning I came across your blog for the first time, and the touching piece on the loss of your precious daughter, Emily, has inspired me to do something I’ve never done before…leave a comment on a blog. I just want to say that I admire, and am even in awe of, your acceptance of this heartbreak! I, too, have lost a child, and am always sadly surprised at how many of us grieving mothers there are out here. Thank you for sharing a bit of your sadness and comfort with the rest of us. It’s always good to know that others have survived the same pain. God bless you and your family.

  22. Thank you for sharing your grief and sharing your hope. I too lost a child to a miscarriage. I was blessed to have a friend who lost a child to a birth defect who was able to be there for me and understand the pain I was dealing with. I felt guilty at times grieving because I was not very far along in the pregnancy. Her words still ring true today, “There is no good time to lose a child.” I struggled in my walk with the Lord so angry that he would allow me to get pregnant and then take my child. But God is faithful and good. He was patient and loving with me. Doing a work in me to show me the lies I was believing that were hurting me and my family, really His family. God is fully in control and he fully LOVES me! The trust in God that has come from this experience has really been a blessing. We live in such a hard world and pain will come to all of us at one time or another. Thanks be to God that He will never leave us and NEVER forsake us.

    Thank you for sharing your story and Emily’s precious life here. I smiled and cried. I really love the verse you pointed out, 2 Corinthians 1:3-4. We can truly be a comfort to each other in Christ and the lost. The joy of the Lord is our strength. May God continue to bless you as you commit to following Him. Can help but picture our kids sitting in Jesus’ lap in heaven.

  23. Beautiful video! It will be nine years on the 29th that my first precious baby girl went to be with Jesus! She still very much lives with us every day, but she is in a far better place now…you would think after nine years I wouldn’t cry…not so not till I get to go home to be with Jesus! God Bless you my sister!

  24. Thank you so much for sharing this. At 12 days old our son was air lifted to the children’s hospital for emergency surgery to correct his malrotated bowel. This story brings back so many memories made my tears flow once again. God allowed us to bring our sweet boy home and he is a healthy 16 months old, but not a day goes by that we don’t think about what could have been. Not enough people know that this is a possibility. When he started throwing up, we thought it was just reflux or an allergy. Thank you again for sharing your message of loss and hope.

  25. Thank you for sharing the slideshow about your precious Emily’s life. I am so sorry you lost your sweet little Emily. I want you to know I prayed for you tonight and will continue to pray for your comfort, peace and for joy overflowing in your home and marriage. I know this happened in 2008, but I also know you will never, ever forget, “get over”, or move on from the loss of a child. You simply continue to live, love your family, and wait, for the glorious day you will re-unite and hold her and talk to her and are able to be with her forever! God bless you!

  26. My son just had his 6th Angel Day (we call the day he went to Heaven his Angel Day :) … and this year I didn’t seem to grieve… Well, as it turns out, I didn’t allow myself to grieve. With homeschooling and every other little thing going on, I didn’t let myself have time to go through his little baby life and the memories and such … but I feel like God has given me two reminders – and I’m wondering why. I guess it took great strength to remain strong with all that is going on – but greater strength to let go and remember why he came into our lives in the first place. Ya, my life definitely needs to slow down. Thank you for that priceless video. I’m sure no one has been able to watch it without shedding tears – and it really helped me to remember that the club we belong to, well, it’s by invitation from our Lord only – and we are mothers of Angels. So how lucky are we??? Amen! (and enough time has past where I can say that with all the miracles I’ve seen – I know he is near and will meet me when it’s my turn … ) <3

  27. I just came about your blog, and I watched the video of your precious Emmy. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I also have an angel in the arms of Jesus.I know that we will all be ogether again soon. Thank you again.

  28. I know I just commented but watching this video I realize I have never seen anyone else with Brookie’s exact dx word for word. I’m not sure why seeing the words “malrotation” and “causing her intestines to twist and die” just hit me so hard! God Bless you..

  29. I am so grateful that a friend forwarded me your site.I was initially searching for liquid soap recipes, but your site offers so much more. I too am a grieving mother. I lost my only child at the time, my 15 year old daughter in 2006.I simply love your statement about moving forward. I always say that I refuse to move on, like people encourage me to do. Moving on denotes leaving behind and I will never leave my daughter behind. I will simply keep moving. I have a deep belief in the Bible and I am striving to travel the narrow road to everlasting life. Like yours, my daughter is on the way ahead of me.

  30. I’m currently going thru a rought time with my family but seeying the video about your little angel it brought me to my knees and crying because there is a GOD out there that is always with us. It help us even when we are suffering and in pain and that why he ask for her to return back home. God bless you with your kids and to give you strengh to rest of the journey that lays ahead of you and your family.

    God bless you.

  31. Amy, I have always admired you and your story and testimony of Emily. While empathy wasn’t possible, sympathy was strong. Well, as of Friday, Feb 22nd, I now have the empathy as well. Out 7th child, Benjamin, was born on the 18th of feb. he was born, after a perfectly healthy pregnancy, via emergency csection. Unfortunately, no matter the great care he received, he passed into the arms of his savior on the 22nd. The grief, right now, as you know, is nearly overwhelming. Thank The Lord we have his sustaining grace.

  32. THANK U VERY MUCH .i lost my two sons gary 3-17-11 wyile 9-27-11 its been so had for me icry all the time some days i dont wont 2 get out of bed i have outher kids i dont talk 2 them itry i hurts me i see my outher kids in them it hurt . i know how u feel it is so i need to go no but i try 1 or 2days a week its geting better maybe i well see my outher kids ilove very much .u have outher kids to i god bless u and youer family this has helped me feel alot better thank u verymuch i dont know how 2 end this god bless youer famiy

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  34. My son has just passed away a week ago. His name was Joseph but we called him joey. He had just turned two and a half on the 21st of march. It was a sudden death because he had choked on a big toy at daycare. That boy was my world and my best friend. If I didn’t have him it was because I was at work. He was perfect baby boy. Never was unhappy, never wasn’t smiling or laughing. I don’t know how to get through this and move forward. No body knows how I’m feeling and I just was to move forward. Please help!!!

    • Jennifer – I am so sorry you lost your little Joey. I know it feels like you will never survive this, but you will. You just keep walking, one foot in front the other, over and over. I don’t know if you are a believer, but I will be praying for you (and I mean that with all my heart). There is Hope, a hope that will bring you to the other side of this with comfort and peace. I do not know what I would have done without my faith in Christ because all seemed lost when Emily passed away, but my faith is what kept me from sinking. You are loved, Jennifer. ((HUGS))

    • God bless you. I love you my friend. Jesus Loves you more. He is with you right now. Abba, bring joy to this precious Jennifer of Yours right now. Bring relief in the midst of her suffering. Bring answers and clarity where there seems to be confusion and unrest. Bring hope and Love where there is fear and doubt. Most of all bring Salvation and the comfort of the Holy Ghost, Your magnificent and protective presence in the midst of emptiness. In Jesus name, Amen.

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  36. What a beautiful video and precious girl. I’m so sad this tragedy was a part of your family’s story. I’m eternally thankful for your God-honoring response. Prayers that the Lord would continue to comfort your throughout this life.

  37. I heard about your loss from my daughter, my heart goes out to you and your family. My daughter lost her first born , too soon for us all, she lived 39 days, she was attached to tubes and never made it home to the beautiful crib that waited for her. As Grandma I hurt for them, and for myself as well as for my daughter and son in law, It hurt to watch them love and hope for a miracle. My granddaughter was a blessing to have her for that 39 days, she went home to Jesus 3/11/2006.That hurt doesn’t ever go away, Blessed several times more they have 2 beautiful boys and they know they had a sister who cant be with us. Thank you for sharing your Emily’s story, your daughter is beautiful. Your family is bless for having her in your lives. Grief is not easy and sharing is helpful. Thank you

  38. Dear Amy –

    Thank you so much for sharing Emily’s story with the rest of us. I am so very sorry for your loss, but am so glad that the Lord is using her short life and your courage to bless so many others. I had never read your blog before – what a sweet way to honor the Lord in all that you do.

    I wept as I read your story tonight, and as I think on Romans 12:15, I look forward to “rejoicing with you as you rejoice” as tonight I have “mourned with you who mourn”.

    God bless you my sister in the Lord! Thank you for your ministry to so many and for sharing Emily’s testimony. Her life has blessed others more than you will ever know.

    As we raise our arrows for God’s glory, may they always fly straight and strong!

    With love,
    Darla in Texas

  39. I am so sorry for the loss of your baby Emily. I was introduced to your blog by a friend. My husband and I lost our second daughter, Esther, to a cord accident last February. The last few months have been the hardest of our lives. Thank you for sharing your story and your faith.


  40. Thank you for sharing this video/your story. It extra touched me because my name is Emily and my birthday is Feb 10…& our wedding anniversary is July 4th! Bless you and I’m praying for you!!

  41. I lost my daughter I am not sure how to move on from here. She is going to be 34 next Tuesday. She was addicted to heroin I could hardly admit that fact there was just so much unsaid between us. She died September 24 one week before her oldest daughters birthday. I have been raising them since they were babies. I do not understand she just got out of rehab for two weeks. I was so angry at her for leaving this time when she text me she loved me I did not tell my baby I loved her back.
    No forgiveness for this mom.

  42. I stumbled on your blog reading about Homemaker burnout :) I know God has a way of directing us straight to what we really need! I have now sat here and read through almost every entry referring to the grieving mother and the tears have not stopped. You have such a gift for sharing your story and inspiring others to be better! Thank you for sharing that gift. I am so sorry for your loss and pray for each one here who has suffered a loss as great as this. We recently lost my nephew. My sister has been a single mother for as long as I can remember and so I truly felt like he was one of my own children. He simply went up the stairs, lost his balance, fell back and hit his head. Nothing has been the same since. The loss has affected so many and the ripple just keeps growing. I really fear for my sister she refuses to get any type of counseling and each of us are having a harder and harder time even being around her. She really wants everyone and everything to just STOP and I feel there is no way to get her through it. I will keep reading and praying and giving her grace. Again, thanks! Prayers and blessings to you and your family.

  43. Hi Amy, I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Emily and I would love to chat with you. Please contact me at the email address above and have a look at my site. I founded the support ministry in August 2007 and God is good to have blessed me on my own journey as well as walking with other moms who have suffered loss of their child or children… I have authored 2 books and host many events and such. L:ooking forward to hearing from you,

    Many blessings, Autumn

  44. Do you have any info on grieving mothers(hurts as if by death), of involuntary termination of parental rights? I feel cheated by the state of ga. I just moved to sc to be with my grown kids but is hard to not have my eight year old son. Any help?

    • I’m sorry, Angie, I do not have any experience with that particular situation. You might want to download the free devotional and work through it. ((HUGS))

  45. Thank you for sharing you story of Emily, as well as the strength and support you have found through His word. Though our story is different, and it is a journey that has not yet come to an end, finding these resources is a great help to me, especially the psalms.

    I am currently 31 weeks pregnant with our second child, Riley. We struggled so hard to get pregnant with Riley, and in the four years since our first child was born, we prayed almost daily to be granted the miracle of a second child. Eight weeks ago, we learned that Riley has BRA, a condition that makes our sweet child incompatible with life. We choose to carry to term, knowing that we may only be granted a few precious moments in which to say both hello and good bye to our sweet angel, if we are given any time at all. Each day is a struggle, and only by turning to God have my husband and I been able to endure this ever growing pain. As we come closer and closer to the end of our journey (I will be induced in 42 days) it has become harder and harder to find Peace. Today, I spent much of the afternoon just begging God to give me some kind of guidance and help me find what I needed to keep me wrapped in his love through HIs word….and I stumbled across your sight quite by accident.

    Thank you for taking the time in your life to let the Holy Spirit guide you so that you can help guide grieving mothers by sharing your story.

  46. Dear Amy,

    Your writing is beautiful and powerful and your story broke my heart. I grieve your daughter with you, and am thankful that you know that you will hold and kiss her again.

    Much love.

  47. I just read Emily’s story. My baby Elizabeth died March 22,2007. She was a preemie and died in my arms. Letting the nurses take her away was horrible. Burying her was hard too, realizing I couldn’t see her anymore. I wanted to go dig her up later that day. I never told anyone that because it sounds crazy. I am so thankful to have the hope of seeing her again. God has strengthened me and I now am thankful to have had a daughter. My husband and I thank God every night for her along with our other children. We have 3 boys with us so far and our daughter in heaven.

  48. My Beautiful Daughter took her life by hanging she sentenced to 18 months in jail However they put her in 23 hr. Lockdown and No human contact She was Never one to stayed cooped up She reached her breaking point gave up her fight and Now I’m left behind to go on !! She was my most loved child and Our bond was so Strong !! I dread everyday I wake to remember she’s gone . I pray for Death !!

  49. Dear Amy, thank you for sharing your story about your precious little one, of blessed memory. Seeing the pictures together with that beautiful song reminded me of our precious foster son who also passed away very suddenly in a similar way. And we too used that beautiful drawing of Jesus holding a baby. They have gone ahead, and we may treasure their memory, which is truly blessed.
    Love and blessings from another THM mom, living in Jerusalem, Israel.

  50. Amy…I found your devotional on line a few months after my son died suddenly. It ministered to me and helped me in my journey to healing. I helped to start a group for mothers that have lost children and part of our ministry is sending out care packages to newly bereaved mothers. I put a copy of your devotion in the packages and I have had lots of positive feedback on it. It is helping mother’s to understand how important it is to surrender their loss to God from the beginning and let Him do a mighty work in their lives. Thank you for your ministry and this devotion that you have given so freely.

  51. I happened on your page and saw the sweet picture of Emily, then I read the caption and had to know your story. It has been 17 years since my sweet Megan came and went in just one short week of life. She was baby number four and a surprise for us. It was such a struggle for me as a Christian to comprehend why God gave her to us just to take her home so quickly. I remember as we sat in the NICU telling my friend that I just wanted Jesus to come get here if I had to give her up, because laying her in His arms would be easier than letting her go here on earth. I wish our children could have known her outside of the hospital, seen her with me smiling, known their sister more. I treasure the hope I have of holding her again in heaven. God bless you and your family as you also wait to hold Emily again.